thinking about if dean and sam’s “we’ll play into your story and kill each other but you gotta bring the birds the people - cas - back” deal with chuck worked cas would have woken up to a world where dean is dead.
you love him and you die. you tell him because you’re going to die, telling him is going to kill you. you go with a smile on your face. this is the last time, you will not wake up. you will be trapped forever in endless regrets in endless sleep. you are at peace with this. this moment before your end is one of true happiness. you wake up. you weren’t expecting to wake up, you made your peace with it. you wake up. you love him and he was dying and then he was not. he is going to live. you wake up. he is dead.
the ever revolving door of self sacrifice and trading your life for their’s perhaps it’s because you don’t fully realize how much your loss would devastate them yes. but more importantly. because you can’t handle how much their loss devastates you
let me be dead in your place where I don’t have to feel it. let you sew up the edges of the hole I’ve rended in you let you heal from the wound in your chest. dear god don’t make me be the one to live with it. let me die first
the ever revolving door of self sacrifice and trading your life for their’s perhaps it’s because you don’t fully realize how much your loss would devastate them yes. but more importantly. because you can’t handle how much their loss devastates you
thinking about if dean and sam’s “we’ll play into your story and kill each other but you gotta bring the birds the people - cas - back” deal with chuck worked cas would have woken up to a world where dean is dead.
It’s jarring every time dean says he’s doesn’t know what it’s like to lose someone like that (Jess for Sam and then Karen for Bobby) because he literally doesn’t know how much he’s going to find out and many times at that.
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